Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Possibly Perfection :)

Today was the last day of school.
It took forever in getting here, yet at the same time the year feels like it went by so fast!
After sitting outside for 5 or 6 hours signing year books, I basically look like a lobster.
Or a tired raccoon - for some reason the area right around my eyes never gets burned, even though I never wear glasses or anything. I guess the sun just wants me to look funny, as if my farmer's tan and terrible sock lines didn't already do that! :)

But you know what?
Despite my funny lines and my sore hand, today was near perfection.

I got to tell all (well, most) of my friends how much I loved them.

I got to talk to one of my bestest friends ever!!

I got to eat my first snow cone of summer - 2 actually :) what a lucky duck I am!

I got to get big slobbery kisses from my baby brother (his first tooth is coming in, so it sorta hurt!!).

 


(sorry...I intended to post just one, but once I got started, he was just too cute to stop!)

I got to read and read and read and even read some more, without any guilt for not doing my homework.

I got to sit in the sunshine and enjoy life.
I got to play with my little brothers.

I got to experience my first taste of a Snoasis snow cone (it was completely ah-mazing!)
(this applies to snow cones as well!)

I got to enjoy being me, living life without it being scripted for me.

I got to do a lot of wonderful things today - sometimes I forget how blessed I am to have the ability to "get to" do so many things.
And the best part is? I have at least 80 more days of this :)


Perfection?
Maybe not, but it's pretty darn close!!!

So here's to summer.
adventures.
memories.
laughing.
best friends.
learning - not from textbooks!
growing.
living life.
being me.
 Trust me, I'll love it :)

Friday, May 25, 2012

Beauty All Around

This week was a little on the insanely-sleep-deprived-and-over-stressed-and-extra-confused side of things. I am so grateful to have survived it - definitely with lots of tears and less than perfect grades, but you know what? My high school experience is one year closer to being over with, and I made it through [mostly] intact!

Some of my friends invited me to go to the Draper Temple with them after school, and I am so grateful I had the chance to go. What a beautiful place to be with beautiful people :)

Even in the middle of my three-finals-day craziness, I held on knowing that soon enough, I would be in my Heavenly Father's house, and be able to feel His peace.
Thank goodness for good friends and good reminders to calm down a little bit!


On another note: 
I have this thing with memories. I love to relive stories and adventures and funny times, but at the same time, it kinda worries me a little bit. When I have an awesome memory of something, it worries me a little to try and repeat it, or recreate it, just incase it doesn't turn out as good as I remember it being. 
What if it isn't everything it was last year? 
What if I'm too different now? 
How can I make tonight as great as the past without comparing too much to the past? 

Ah. I can kinda work myself up sometimes. So, note to self:  just be me. And enjoy it :) you can't live the same thing over and over again, that would be too boring! I have to be willing to accept change, be spontaneous, and enjoy a little bit of adventure.
Things work out...right? 
Right.

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Boiled Cabbage and Bad Days

my love of math is equal to my love of boiled cabbage:

it's  NONEXISTENT. 

but hey...
And remember, 

 so now,
 because I know that
That's all. 
And even if I will always maintain my feelings about boiled cabbage and math,
I know that life goes on. And you know what? Today can still turn into a great day :)



Monday, May 21, 2012

Miracles on Temple Square

Basically, yesterday was miraculous :)

It started out with Mission Prep at 7:30 - honestly, what could be better? I have learned that you don't really know something until you are able to teach it. Boy, do I need a lot of work! But by the time I graduate, I will be ready to share my testimony with anyone and everyone, regardless of if I literally go on a mission or follow the statement of "every member a missionary."

Right after Mission Prep, my friend picked me up and we drove up to see Music and the Spoken Word. Oh, it was absolutely amazing! In my family, it is a tradition to watch it every week as we get ready, but I have never actually been there in person. While watching it is great, there is something so beautiful about actually hearing it live with your own ears.

The drive up was fun - we told memories and funny stories and talked about...well, whatever we felt like! We had to walk really fast through Temple Square, and luckily made it through the doors at about 9:25 - they say they close the doors at 9:15, and I am so glad that they didn't!

Obviously, this is not my picture. However, 
when we went, the backlighting really was blue. 

We walked down the side aisle of the Tabernacle and found a seat off to the left but pretty close to the front. We watched as the director-person counted down one minute, forty-five seconds, thirty seconds, twenty, fifteen, ten, nine, eight, seven six five, four, ---, --, -, and then, the music started.

During the entire performance I could not keep a smile off of my face :) I just l over being there, seeing all of our favorite people - Belinda, the "Wiggly Guy," Alex Boye - in person. It is definitely an incredible experience!! When the cameras stopped rolling, Brother Newell came around to the front and spoke for a minute, then the choir sang "God Be With You Till We Meet Again."

This is Alex Boye - he sings the solos in "Battle of Jericho" 
and "Rock of My Soul", two of our favorite songs. 

After the performance ended, my friend and I walked outside to enjoy the rest of Temple Square in the sunshine - what a glorious place to be!

"There is beauty all around"

It seriously was this beautiful - you probably think I am kidding, but I promise I am not!! The sky was a brilliant blue, all of the flowers were bright and blooming, the trees were green and full, and the sun was shining and warm. It was the most perfect, beautiful place to be on a Sunday. 

We ran in to some sister missionaries from Canada and Southern California who prompted us to do a "scroll of salvation" on our phones to help our friends receive the gospel - what a wonderful term :) My friend found one and gave them her name so that she could be called and taught about the gospel. 

The flowers down this row in the middle were some of my favorites :)
(this is not picture either - none of them are - but they give the gist of what it looked like)

After we finished our discussion with the missionaries, we went into one of the visitor centers so that we could see a model of the temple and the rooms inside. As we were looking at it, a group of Taiwanese tourists came up with a pair of sister missionaries. They asked us to back up so that the group could see, so we shuffled around to the other side; of course, a few minutes later they walked to the other side, and once again, we were in the way. This time, rather that asking us to move, one of the sister missionaries asked if we could be part of lesson/tour that she was giving. We looked at each other, then, of course, said yes. Immediately she started jabbering in rapid Taiwanese to the group, motioning at both of us. She turned to us and said "I just told them that when members come to the temple, the wear suits and ties and skirts like you two are." We nodded, and she continued talking. 

These are some Taiwanese characters. 
After listening to the sister missionary talk,
it gave me a whole knew level of wonder at the scrambling of languages at the Tower of Babel;
I didn't have a clue what in the world they were saying!!

After talking and motioning some more with her hands, the missionary turned to us and asked "would it be all right if you two bore your testimonies on the eternal nature of the family when I am done?" Once again we glanced at each other, and this time somewhat nervously, said yes. 

She turned back to the group and continued talking to them, then all of a sudden she was motioning to my friend. She introduced him to the group, and asked him to talk slowly so that she could translate to the others. He began to share his testimony, and everyone in the group kept their eyes glued on him. He told them of how much he loved his family, and how he knew that someday he could live with them again. It was really neat to hear him share what he knew, and then hear the sister missionary translate it into a whole other language, yet both groups, despite the language barrier, could feel the truth of his testimony. 

I was pretty nervous about sharing my testimony to a group of people I had never met, let alone those who didn't understand my language. Also add to that the fact that my friend had gone first, and I was just hoping that I wouldn't repeat all of the things that he said! :) It turned out well though - I think that my Missionary Prep classes have helped, as well as little promptings as I talked. Although I didn't necessarily connect this while I was sharing my testimony, I realize now that I had thoughts brought to mind that I just felt like I needed to share. I testified that not only would I be able to live with my family again, but also with my Heavenly Father. I told them that I know I am a daughter of God, and through the ordinances in the temples, someday I can return to Him.



I really hope that they could see how much my testimony meant to me, and how firmly I believe it. To me, the knowledge that I am a child of God, and that my earthly family can be together forever, is something that I have known since I was little. Sometimes I forget that not everyone knows these things that I am blessed with. I am really going to try harder not to take my testimony for granted. 

After both of us had shared, they asked us how old we were. It was neat to find out that we had been able to share our testimonies with a group of students about our own age! Then they all wanted to take pictures of us, so my friend and I stood there as about 15-20 people, including the teachers that were chaperoning the trip, came to take their pictures with us. I felt a little bit like a Disney character at Disneyland or something! I really hope that as they look back through their pictures, they can see the light that my friend  and I have as a result of the gospel. I hope they not only remember what my friend and I shared with them, but also the Spirit that they (hopefully) felt. 
Taiwan

It was so neat to know that I was sharing my testimony with other kids from half way across the world! It was also kinda miraculous to realize that had we arrived in the visitor center a few minutes earlier or later, we might not have had such an amazing experience. That experience was definitely a testimony builder of how much my Heavenly Father knows where I need to be. I hope that maybe in some small way, I was able to touch someone's life, or say something that one of those students needed to hear. I hope that Heavenly Father knows that He can count on me to help one of His other children, whether they be from across the nations or right next door.

We continued walking around Temple Square some more, and eventually made our way over to the Conference Center. There was actually a stake/regional conference going on, but we walked around, listened to Elder Holland (that would be so amazing to have him speak at a stake conference!!), and then went out on the balcony and down the steps. After trying a few floors of the parking garage, we luckily found the car - it really did take us a few times :)

This was a skylight in the Conference Center - so pretty! 
There were mirrors all around it to reflect the light. 


The drive home was great - more stories and things shared. We were both so excited about the experience in the visitor center; it was an amazing moment of being in the right place at the right time. I am so thankful that I was able to spend such a wonderful Sunday morning with such an extraordinary person in such a beautiful place!!

Friday, May 18, 2012

Thank Goodness It's Friday!


Dad: I want to help you get an ATM card over the summer.
Me: No! That would make me too big...I mean old! I can't do that. I just want to go back to elementary school!
Mom: Take me with you!
Me: I wish I could go back and appreciate it more. Elementary school was perfect.
Reese: Derek (my 6 year old brother) doesn't realize how lucky he is.
Dad: Yes, but think about all of the things you didn't like about being that age -- you couldn't even see above the counter! You were constantly looking up to everyone.
Reese: Yeah, but all you had to do was eat!
Dad: No Reese, that's 6 MONTHS old, I was talking about being 6 YEARS old :) 

Wasn't elementary school just perfect? 
Sometimes I definitely wish that I could go back.
Life was so much simpler back then - the language was clean, the movies and shows were funny, my friends were all little-kid-cute, short, and innocent. 
The only music I knew was what CDs my parents had -- nothing quite like rocking out to the Beatles while doing saturday chores :) 
Everything was magical. Any common object could transform into something with the potential for adventure. 















I thought that any homework that took longer than maybe 10 minutes was terrible. And back then, homework over the weekend was nonexistent. Fridays were freedom.  

Even though I don't "live" in elementary school anymore, fridays are still freedom -- even if I have more homework to do than the rest of the week combined.


Today, it's friday...finally :)

















It's been a great day, because fridays are always great days.
It's the day I look forward to during the whole school week, knowing that I will finally get a break from the norm.
It's the day I can finally do whatever I want and procrastinate all responsibility, because there is always saturday coming up next.
It's just a great day to be alive :)

Do you know what makes this friday even better?




















It rained today!
I love the rain.
I love dancing in the rain.
I love the smell of rain. 
I love the clean world left behind by the rain.
And even if there are big storm clouds and the skies are gray, 
you always know that the sun will come out again -- it can't hide forever. 
And then, when it does, the whole world is more beautiful and green than ever before. 




















It's definitely a great day to say "Thank Goodness It's Friday!!!"


Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Lists

          I am the type person who basically survives by making lists. If it isn't on the list, it won't get done. Most of the time, even if it IS on the list, it still doesn't get done :)
          Lately, my lists have been titled things like...

  • Things I Need For The AP Tests
  • How To Prepare For the AP Tests
  • Things I Am Procrastinating Until Friday (the day of my last AP test)
  • Make-Up Work To Do Over The Weekend
          My lists aren't really looking so great, huh? I guess I have sort of turned in to a little bit of a terrible student lately. Ok, "a lot" of a terrible student. Lots of procrastination, assignments that should have been done earlier, and last minute cramming. I really am a good student, I promise! My past grades definitely prove it. But right now, I just have a little bit of summer-fever -- lets be honest, at this point in the school year, who doesn't? Oh, summer cannot come fast enough.
          I can't wait until my lists look like...

          Yes. Exactly like that. With nothing particular on the agenda. Days full of whatever I want to do; spending time with people instead of textbooks. 
          I definitely have my share of things to do this summer, from family trips, chores, organizing my room, earning some money, and preparing for next school year. But believe me, there will definitely be some wonderful days that are going empty. Not empty of activity, and definitely not bored,  but simply empty of pre-determined scheduling. Spontaneous, you know? :)
          Well, now I better go face my current list: "Homework Assignments To Finish Before Tomorrow." Wish me luck! I'll try to not daydream of my future summer adventures too much :) 

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Ew. Again.

There is another spider on my ceiling. For real? This is ridiculous. No. It is BEYOND ridiculous. So help me, if another spider shows up to eat this one...there will be consequences. SERIOUS consequences.

Ew.

          I know I should be in bed right now - honestly, I should have been in bed an hour and a half ago, if I had followed my homework schedule that I made for myself (but somehow I can never quite stick to them).
          But I had to tell about my latest adventure, and oh, it was quite the disgusting one.
          I was sitting on my floor getting my school stuff in my backpack for tomorrow, when I looked up at my ceiling and noticed two little blobs moving around. Note to self: moving blobs on a ceiling are not normal. To my disgust, I discovered that they were spiders. They must have known that my dad wouldn't be able to come and kill them for me tonight!
          The small red one started moving around, scurrying like spiders do - oh, it just makes me shudder to think about. It happened to scuttle just a little too close to the big one and just like that, he was a goner.
          Of course, in the process of gobbling up the little one, the big one fell to my floor, where it happened to camouflage perfectly with my carpet - just lovely. At this point I was perched on the edge of my bed, trying not to loose sight of it. I was scared to get off my bed to get a shoe, but I was most certainly not willing to wake up with this thing on my pillow! I hopped of my bed, grabbed my black sunday flats, for lack of a better squishing device (honestly, I wanted to use a text book, but then I decided carrying spider guts around all day tomorrow did not sound very appealing!). I quickly scrambled back to the bed, and luckily found the spider on my floor again. Just as it was trying to make it's escape to the shadows under my bed, I smacked it with a satisfying thud.
          The only problem: I can't find it's guts anywhere.
          This is sort of an issue. Normally, I can't be in the same room as a spider being killed, let alone do it myself. I absolutely hate them, but for some reason I just can't stand being the one to squish them. So basically, the fact that I even took the initiative to kill one tonight was quite an accomplishment.
          But now? Who knows where the spider is? Definitely not me! Is squished in the carpet somewhere? On my shoe? Heaven forbid, on ME? Did it escape all together? Ew. And tomorrow, if I step on it somehow, I promise that you will hear my scream, where ever you are.